Friday, May 13, 2005 seems like yesterday
you were a part of me
i used to stand so tall
i used to be so strong
your arms around me tight
everything it felt so right
unbreakable
like nothing could go wrong
now i can't breathe
no i can't sleep
i'm barely hanging on
here i am, once again
i'm torn into pieces
can't deny it, can't pretend
just thought you were the one
broken up, deep inside
but you won't get to see the tears i cry
behind these hazel eyes
i told you everything
opened up and let you in
you made me feel alright
for once in my life
now all that's left of me
is what i pretend to be
so together, but so broken up inside
swallow me, then spit me out
for hating you, i blame myself
seeing you, it kills me now
no, i don't cry on the outside anymore
anymore.
behind these hazel eyes.
kelly clarkson.
today is friday the 13th! wow. feeling lousy again. forever feeling lousy. i think i am losing it. what's wrong with me? i so need to get a life. no i don't cry on the outside anymore. i will keep everything to myself from now on and put on this smiling mask like everyone wants me to :)
God i really need a job. please give me one before i go insane, please?
-praying
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